I had dream last night/this morning. I don't even know if this was a nightmare, or at least it didn't stay that way. It just left me confused. I remember the setting was my old home on W block, except in the dream, I still lived there.
I was being threatened by some dude that was saying he was gonna break into my home and murder me, maybe murder everyone, I don't remember. I think maybe he did kill others before he got there, but I can't remember those details. Anyhow, I locked the door and grabbed a knife or two. One of them was my green paring knife. I was holding that one the whole rest of the dream. When he came inside, I stabbed him a bunch, mostly in the chest, but he didn't bleed out. He just walked outside. I called 911 and told them my address and what happened and wanted to detain the dude who was no longer posing a threat, but because he had before and I wanted him arrested. I was confused why he was fine and just walking around after getting stabbed a bunch in the torso.
I remember thinking as I was awake and trying to get back to sleep. I specifically remember giving my current home address and knew the setting in the dream was my old home. This begs the question if perhaps I was the home invader that lost their damn mind. The police never showed, although I can't know whether or not they were on their way before I awoke. I also remember wondering if they'd send the SCP Foundation, but that was definitely after I had awoken when I had those thoughts, lol.
Tuesday, March 8, 2022
Dream: Why No Die?
Monday, November 8, 2021
Dream: The Blood Games
I'm part of some group, possibly military, I don't remember. Anyhow, we do training that is akin to being in a video game, where you have to find supplies to use and they are just around somewhere in the environment. In each of these sessions, we start out either first or in a diffferent location than the 'people' that we are to battle. The opposing group/individuals are vampires. Needless to say, they don't need high powered rifles and are probably already wearing all they need. The earlier training sessions don't seem dangerous, but the later one seemed more important and/or dangerous. In between or after all of the sessions were done, someone was telling me what a disgrace I was for allowing myself to get enthralled by one of those blood suckers and while on live recording. This was a shock for 2 reasons. Number one, I didn't know we were being recorded or at least not on live tv. Number two, I didn't even remember that vampire encounter and had a mild panic to check my neck for markings, both with my hand and a mirror. They were there. About me lately...
For October, I have watched quite a lot horror movies, which did include some vampire movies. However, the most recent this weekend were Hellraiser movies. The only connection in that was a thought that popped into my head from a meme about a landlord wanting money or blood for rent. I have been sick this weekend with a cold, but I don't know if that matters toward this dream. (Sometimes physical feelings encourage the subconscious to make something up in a dream.) Pain in my throat, maybe? lol, This is my brain after all. Another thing that comes to mind isn't that recent, but it was before surgery months ago. When I got my blood tested, prior to the surgery, the doc sent me a message before I even got the test results. "Your tank's half empty, take iron twice daily with vitamin C." (it was longer, but yeah.) Basically, I found out I was animic, which I had been oblivious to. Currently, my cheeks are plenty rosey, both because the cause of the blood loss was fixed and because I'm a little warm.
Tuesday, September 14, 2021
Hiding in Hollywood
Monday, January 27, 2020
Personal-itty (pseudo psychology shit)
I've had an interest in MBTI as of the last few months. I can't say as to the exact reason why though. Perhaps looking for answers to some unknown question. First time I took a test was in college and didn't think much on it beyond that day. I got INTJ, the only one in our small class and when the instructor was grouping us up by type, he just had me pair up with someone that got ENTJ, which are "sister types" so we could discuss whatever the hell we needed to for some assignment. To be fair, those two have the same top 4 cognitive functions, but in a different order. INTJ = Ni (introverted intuitive), Te (extroverted thinker), Fi (introverted feeler), & Se (extroverted sensor). ENTJ - Te, Ni, Se, Fi. He was someone I got along with, possibly more than the other classmates. We had some stuff in common I suppose, but you wouldn't know it easily, since he was chatty and I was most definitely not, lol. Anyhow, I remember taking the test since and forgetting about it past that. This most recent time, I don't know if it popped into my head randomly or what suggestion put it in my head, but I've been enjoying the silly parodies and solving curiosities. In all honesty, I've only really looked into like 6 of the 16 types on how their cognitive stacks tend to manifest & make more sense of those stereotypes in the silly videos beyond my own type. Starting with the one I got mistyped for on the 16personalities website, ISTJ, which was literally 51% S & 49% N. Followed by the other 1 letter off types and the fourth NT type. (I hesitate to say sister types because INTP has all 4 top cognitive functions different). When I looked into ENTP, I had the "AHA!" moment of figuring out what my bf is, lol. He won't waste his time with a test, because he doesn't like to be "put in a box". Then of course he doesn't because he's an extroverted intuitive XD (Ne, Ti, Fe, Si). Interesting enough, his type and my type are shadows of each other and then I come to find out shadow types do very well to get along for companionship or whatnot. The whole give & take with the functions, so less clashing & more making up for what the other lacks. I think there is also a lack of understanding among say xNTx to xSFx types, which I'm totally not helping with, having not really done much to learn more about the other 10 types, aside from knowing what their cognitive stacks are. Then again, "typical" behaviors are not always typical. Also, there's even the animal thing with whole sleep, consume, play, and blast to try and explain variances because humans are complicated.
It is quite common to get mistyped and I think that is the biggest issue with Myers Briggs not always being reliable. I try to emphasize to people new to it that it is very important to read the descriptions and if it sounds off, it probably is. Best you can do is go in honest and unbiased, as best you can. When I was looking into the differences between INTJ and ISTJ, was like "Hmm, I do like things to have some semblance of order", but... Plus, the functions themselves will tell you. Ni-Te does well for finding patterns, creative solutions (or is some cases, fucking duh! your answer exists already. how do you not see it?!) [Seriously though, sometimes it's hard to not be a damn stereotype when someone is so stupid, that I want to mentally slap them.] Also, Ni on it's own, my mind just wanders off more often than I care to admit. Fi in the third slot, means I do have my inner emotions, but they are not the first thing on my mind and as such do not always express them. Se fourth slot = "repressed Se" which is to say I either notice things very well or not at all. If I'm really focused on something, I can become oblivious to some things that require use of the 5 senses. It also means my type can easily get caught up in the extroverted senses, such as drinking and bing-eating, or in my case requiring my clothes to both look and feel good (to me), a hot bubble bath with lovely scented bath items (dear god that lavender soap is addictive), youtube, and video games. To me, everything has to have a point or purpose, even if it is simply curiosity or entertainment. Then there is extroverted feeling, the 7th function, the blind spot the size of a damn bus... dealing with other people. I'm pretty sure my experiences while my mind was developing contributed to that. Only child with a single mom, spent plenty of time alone.
Then I'd had the curiosity of enneagrams. There is no 1 "this is absolutely your type" test to be run, so much as you have to actually understand how it works and figure it out from there. At best, they give suggestions. As MBTI explains how you function, enneagrams is more to explain why you function (motivation). There are 9 types, placed in a circle. The symbol for enneagrams is to connect the types to make more sense in how a person might function. The lines in the middle of the circle connect each type to how they act like other types when they are healthy or unhealthy. There are different levels, which will change based on how healthy you are mentally ranging from optimum to normal to unhealthy. There are potential "wings" for each type, which is when you figure out your primary type, one or both of the adjacent types can be your wing/s. I took tests on 3 websites, got different, but similar results, figured out the rest from looking into what seemed most accurate. I seem to be a 5w6. That being "the investigator" with inclinations towards "the loyalist". The primary type being the curious thinky independent recluse and the second being committed, security-oriented, and highly suspicious.
TLDR: Looney is a huge fucking nerd and not very social.
Wednesday, December 5, 2018
The Old Wound That Never Really Healed
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
Rear End
Monday, December 28, 2015
Crazy Trains and Stabby Dr. Suess
When it first did begin
But please wait a moment (stab)
While your veins do rebend" After the stab and last line, I woke up with the strong urge to pee. It didn't just seem like, "oh, it's a dream so it's weird" at least not the last bit, after the crash. I got a sense of strange going-on's like some weird shit at the beginning of a sci-fi show/movie, before you know the back-story to understand wtf happened. You know the sort, some poor schmuck gets taken in by unknown entity and doesn't understand what happened or why. Did I disrupt something or have the misfortune to enter into a bad place? Did a similar fate happen upon everyone that was there? Perhaps the guys in the cars ahead of me knew something and hence their trying to avoid that cave area and frantic rush to get out of there. Those people staring as if expecting something... Then what happened after? Weird supernatural stuff? Death? But unlike Doctor Who or some other show, you can't just wait for the next episode or look it up online. The only explanation is within the subconscious of the head that dreamed it and it may not be as literal as a story.